Yes, my writing has languished. I’m trying to catch up. Go read the last two posts then come on back. Done? Good.
I’ve not been weighing myself. I’ve not been losing weight. I’ve done some bike riding, but not enough. I’m drinking too much beer. I’ve been depressed.
Normal tasks have overwhelmed me, including writing here, where I try to make myself accountable to the public. That was the whole point of this writing.
I can’t fix everything, but I use this site as a repository of what I have done. I draw my own inspiration from it. I can’t ignore it anymore. Over the next few days to a week I’ll get it up to date to the best of my ability. Then, once that it habit again, I’ll work on something else. Diet? Exercise? Something.
My temporary job is coming to an end. It’s harder to get a new job when you feel like a failure. Earlier today, I actually felt like I was wrapping up my life, rather than just one job. It’s not that I’ll miss the job (I might miss the income). It’s that I feel I have nowhere left to go. Luckily, the feeling has passed, and I’m normal(ish) again. It was a disturbing feeling.
I went off the anti-depressant a couple of months ago. The mental side-effects it had on me were not healthy. I need to do this without a pill. Change needs to come from within.
Wish me luck!