Goals and motivation are important in life. I have goals, but my motivation seems to be lacking recently.
Instead of going grocery shopping yesterday, I went out to eat and had a few beers. I came home and went to bed early. The alcohol helped me fall asleep quickly. I didn’t stay asleep. I woke up a few hours later with a headache and couldn’t sleep until almost 4:00 am.
I got up this morning at 10:00 am. I still have the headache. I’m fighting it with coffee and ibuprofen. I cooked pancakes. That’s not a diet-friendly breakfast, but it’s what I had on hand.
I had originally planned to get some bike miles in this weekend. Yesterday, I rode one whole mile. Today, I’ll go to the grocery store and back.
I’m not motivated. I’m depressed and have a headache. I’m pissed off at myself for the over-consumption yesterday (beer and food). I’m slightly peeved that my caffeine addiction is so bad that sleeping in guarantees a headache.
I have a document I started in 2007, shortly after I started my original weight loss attempt. It was some life goals, and notes about each. I added notes about each goal as the situation changed.
Some of the items on the list no longer apply. I quit updating it before my second marriage. Some of the others are still very relevant: exercise, healthy eating, depression, simple living.
Some of the other items on the list are a bit too private to post. I need to write an updated document with my new goals, and reasoning for each. It may take a while to figure out that document. I’ll post the non-private bits when it’s ready.
I need some exercises to do indoors. There are days I just can’t push myself outside for a ride. That doesn’t mean I should be a lump in front of the computer on those days. I need to do some core and upper-body work anyway.